more picures...

Here's my favorite pictures from Kailah's newborn shoot

learning as we go...

I got some still pictures from the day of Kailah's birth and I wanted to post them. Our photographer did such a great job. we love how they turned out! she really captured every moment.








This week has been full of learning experiences! I always thought that Motherhood would come naturally to me, like it seemed to with my sisters. And I think my sisters will be glad to see this in writing, but I am not a natural, and I have a lot to learn. I give my sisters props for raising their kids the way they do. I honestly don't know how my sister Lisa is doing it with the triplets, but she is and she is such a great mom!
Kailah has baby acne right now, I hate it! if anyone has any ideas for cures feel free to comment! she looks like she's 16, poor baby!!!
I hadn't done Kai's laundry for a week, since that's as often as I do my own, and when i went to do her laundry today, there was mold growing on some of her clothes!!! I couldn't believe it! so I guess i need to do her laundry right away since it has poop and throw up on it! gross!
This week I have been getting back in the swing of things, I'm finally starting to feel like a normal person again, which is nice. We took Kai to blockbuster this weekend to rent some movies, and sunday we took her for a drive around Irvine. It has been nice to get out of the house, since I have been here for the last two weeks. All my days are blurred together, so I never know what day it is.
Kai's umbilical stump came off this week. It's still goopy underneath so we put a bandaid over it, and hope it heals, if not we will take her to the pediatrician. I swear I have called my sister every day this week asking what I am supposed to do... lol.... I used to tell my sisters how they should do things, and now that it comes down to it, I have no idea what I'm doing!

baby acne! :(

so snugly all curled up in a pillow.

she loves tummy time, I love how little she is!

Daddy giving baby some tummy time.

Miss California

MY miss USA:

I just have to get on and say how proud I am of Miss California. I LOVE watching beauty pagaents, so on sunday i was so excited to see that Miss USA was on. Well if you didn't watch it, I recommend you, youtube it. Miss California was asked the question, by Perez Hilton (of coarse), if she thinks all states should allow gay marriage since 4 states already allow it. Miss California, being very christian, answered: "I think it's great Americans are able to choose one or the other," she said. "We live in a land that you can choose same-sex marriage or opposite marriage. And you know what in my country, in my family I think that I believe that a marriage should be between a man and a woman. No offense to anybody there, but that's how I was raised and that's how I think it should be, between a man and a woman." WAY TO REPRESENT! I am so proud of her to sticking to her guns! I have been in pageants before, and the question part is the worst. I honestly can say I don't know how I would have answered that, cause I wouldn't have wanted to offend anyone, and I wouldn't have wanted to be booed or lose the crown over my answer. She did however lose the crown, and came in at first runners up, but she doesn't regret it, and says she wouldn't have answered the question any other way.

my other Miss USA:

this is just one of Kailah's pictures from her newborn shoot. :)

It's official!

We went and got newborn pictures done today, and Kailah peed on Jason and pooped on me, I guess that seals the deal, and makes us parents OFFICIALY! I can't believe how often I am changing diapers! this morning I was changing Kai's diaper and she shot yellow poop all over the wall! I couldn't believe how it just projected out her little bum! I guess I better get used to this!

1 week!

Today Kailah is one week old! It is so crazy to think that this time last week I was just Meeting my little girl. I still can't comprehend that this little girl was living inside me, and making it uncomfortable to sleep. She is eating so well now, and she has good reason to, I am producing so much milk, my breasts look like they are on steroids! Besides how painful they are for me, we are so grateful kailah is getting plenty to eat and some to share with her cousins. Since I really can feed her plus my sisters triplets! LOL! Today Kai weighted 7lbs 5oz, she's almost back to birthweight. She is such a good baby, if she's fed then she's happy. She makes some of the goofiest faces, here's what I could capture. Jason told me today that someone at the hospital asked him if we had oriental jeans in the family. Which I had to laugh cause Jason and I are as white as can be! Kailah's eyes are just little slits right now, so she totally looks like a blonde Chinese baby but if u look at my baby picture, that's how my eyes were when I was first born. So we kind of think she will have my eyes, but right now she still looks so much like Jason, a chinese Jason I guess.
All week people from our ward and my family have brought us meals, which has been a huge help. I have no energy to do anything yet. I'm still not sleeping enough, I should be napping during the day but I just can't seem to fall asleep. I love just holding our little girl and watching her sleep. She smiles a lot when she sleeps and she has just started to have some crazy blowouts, this girl can poop! :)
here's some of Kai's funny faces. We love her cross-eyed look, it cracks us up!



To update u with Jason, the contract job he was doing wasn't working out so he's back to doing more freelance projects and looking for full time work around this area. He is doing an onsite freelance project with a company in Oregon next week, so he leaves on Sunday and will get back on Saturday. I know he needs to go cause he needs to work to support the family, but I'm going to miss him. I think I'm finally getting the groove of things so I'll be fine with the baby, but now that she's here I just want Jason around all the time. I love hanging out and watching the baby with him.

Kailah Eve Raleigh

I'm sure everyone guessed since I hadn't blogged that we had our baby, and your right...
Friday April 10th at 12:30am in the morning I starting going into Labor, by 3:30am we were at the hospital being admitted, I was dilated to a 7 already and they were sure I would deliver within that next couple hours. Despite all my efforts to go "all Natural" At 8cm I opted for an epidural!! My water hadn't broken yet so I was able to handle the contractions, I knew it was only going to get worse, When I got the epidural, my labor slowed down, which we expected so by 10:00 am I was pushing, and since everyone else was like "good, keep going, we can see the head, etc,etc.." I got really antsy and wanted to watch too, so Jason set up the mirror and after only 30mins of pushing at 10:31am KAILAH EVE RALEIGH was born (pronounced: Kye'la) she weighted 7lbs 14oz and 19inches long. We think she looks like Jason but has my nose and my face shape. She has so much blonde hair, I love it!

We stayed at the hospital for 2 days instead of one, we both really needed it, Jason was antsy to get home, but having a nurse available at the push of a button was very comforting. The first night was pretty rough. Kailah had a hard time feeding and she swallowed alot of amniotic fluid, but by the second day we were ready (we thought) to go home. So on Easter morning we woke up to the beautiful sunshine, and our hospital treated us to a celebratory lunch, with sparkling cider and everything. Then we gathered our things and took Kailah outside for the first time to the most beautiful Easter Sunday we had ever seen. The hospital grounds were blooming with white flowers everywhere. That weekend they had a baby boom, so several other mothers were taking their little ones home too. It was perfect!


Kailah's first car ride.

Here is a video put together by photographer Alisa "bean" Morrow She was so great to capture every moment of Kailah's first minutes of life, I am so happy we can share it with all our family and friends, I didn't want anyone but Jason and I in the room during the birth so I think by sharing this video you can hopefully feel like you shared the moment with us too.


Since we have been home, I haven't gotten any sleep! Kailah still had a hard time feeding and we have been back to the hospital the last two days (and the rest of this week) to work with a lactation consultant and get her the nutrients she needs. She lost a whole pound since the hospital, which was too much to lose and she was getting dehydrated, but I am happy to say that the MILK IS IN! and this little baby is eating it up, so as of today she is at a happy 7lbs and almost 1oz, so she's on her way back up the scale, and I think we are all going to be sleeping a little bit more soundly. :)
We both want to give props to our Hospital Kaiser Permenete! We are so happy with our whole experience and the care they showed us, all the free classes and services they offer has helped us tremendously! We will be so sad when Cobra(unemployement insurance) is up and we have to find a new insurance. But thank you Vans, cause if we would have never moved out here and Jason didn't get this insurance from his work, then I know we wouldn't have had as good of experience as we did! :D
I know I have been talking about the nursery and haven't posted pictures, but it literally got completely finished like 2 days before I went into Labor, so Here is some pics of Kailah's room (that she hasn't even gone into yet.)

spoiled little girl! look at all those clothes!





Oh ya and I have to give credit where credit is due...Jason has been the BIGGEST help! I don't know what I would do if I had to do this alone! Although I have been having a hard time, and I've been pretty emotional since Kailah hadn't been eating (plus I just gave birth 4 days ago!) So I'm not so much fun to be around right now, But Jason has done everything I have asked him to do (which is a lot of things!!!!) He's changed more diapers than me and he loves soothing Baby Kai on his chest, which is a huge help when I need to shower or am just too tired. He's definitely a good Daddy, He didn't know if he would like the newborn stage, since she's not very lively, but let me tell you, him and I both don't want her to get any bigger. She is so fun to cuddle, and just stare at. When she is up she always crosses her eyes and makes funny faces, and we just sit there and laugh! She is definitely our number one girl!

Going Private

Hey everyone, I've decided that there is no need for anyone I don't know to be reading our blog so i'm setting my blog private. So let me know your email address so I can add you as a viewer.
I'm still pregnant. this is my last week until my due date and my doctor thinks she'll be here before the weekend. so hopefully a couple more days. I am dialated to a 3 as of this morning so I will keep you all posted. :)

final pictures being pregnant

Yesterday I was just thinking how this weekend is probally Jason and my last weekend together as just the two of us. It was kind of bitter sweet thinking about it. So yesterday we took a walk down at Newport Beach and ate out at some mexican place down there. We finished our night off by coming home and finishing painting the wall art for the baby's room. I am so glad for the last three years Jason and I have had just the two of us. I am so glad we didn't rush into having children (which was by jason's choice. :)) I have learned so much and am so in love with Jason. It's going to be hard having to share his love with another girl... :) But I wouldn't change it for the world. We are both very excited to start a new begining to our life.
Here's some of i'm sure what will be my final pictures being pregnant:



I have found a couple photographers on craigslist and through a friend who are building their portfolios so I have a photographer set up for day one photographs and first week pictures, for the baby. It is going to be fun to see all the photographers style. I love photography and secretly wish I could be a photographer! (I guess it's not such a secret anymore.) So Last week I had photographer Michelle Carillo from the suitcase studio take maternity pictures for me. I think they turned out awesome. When I get the cd I will post more pics, but here are a couple of my favorites from her blog and if you want to see more you can at The suitcase studio blog

Baby pictures

Here's pictures of me and Jason when we were babies.... I am so curious to see who she looks like!

I hope everyone is getting ready for conference... We are I went grocery shopping and got lots of snacks (it's not conference weekend without a lot of snacks.) I also stocked up on a ton of food while i was shopping, I don't think I ever spent so much on food before. I'm going to try to get some meals made and frozen so I don't have to worry about it when the baby gets here. Also I still need to pack my hospital bag! :S Dang bag, does someone want to come pack it for me? I don't know why I can't get myself to do it!

Almost here!

Our baby girl is almost here! My appointment on Wednesday went really well. She's moving along just like she should be. Based on the Ultrasound I had on friday she is measuring in the 47percent tile. (I don't really know what that means yet?) My doctor did say, and I quote. "your going to have a baby before your due date!" Which is cray! because doctors uually wont say things like that since they almost always could be wrong, but she sounded pretty dang sure! So I'm still betting on this weekend! Over the weekend her head dropped into position so I am not carrying as high as I was last week. My belly has definately changed shape, and I have been having braxton hicks contractions much more frequently. Jason just stares at my belly and says I'm huge! It is really crazy to see your belly towards the end of pregnancy, it's amazing your body can stretch so far!
Saturday was my last day at work so this week I have been really taking it easy, relaxing, and doing some picture paintings for the baby's room. I still need to pack my bag for the hospital, but for some reason I have been very unmotivated to do so...that is my goal by the end of today, to have it packed! I'm really not anxious or super excited. I always thought I would be. I think maybe cause I'm dreading labor so much I wouldn't mind being pregnant another month just to pt off going through the pain... So i'm just enjoying the last days of pregnancy, and not rushing anything. I'll be ready for this little girl whenever she wants to make her debut in the world. :)

So until further excitement, I'll keep you posted....