39 weeks.

I'm 39 weeks pregnant, dilated to a 3 and 80% effaced! This baby will be here any day now and we are so excited!  This weekend Jason took some pregnancy pictures for me, I was a little worried we weren't going to be able to get to it this pregnancy but I am so glad that we did.  I have gained only a couple pounds more than what I did when I was pregnant with Kailah, so I'm thinking baby boy will be around the same weight as Kailah was.

Now that I am reaching my due date the most common questions I get asked are; "are you being induced?" and "are you having a c-section?"  I don't know if it's just the area that I live in, but I think it's sad that in these days those questions are so commonly asked.  I think it should just be assumed that everyone is going to go into labor on their own unless other wise stated.  I am so lucky to be able to have really healthy pregnancies and no complications going into labor on my own (so far, that is...)

It's still unofficial but we are pretty sure we have decided on a name, just waiting for this little man to get here so we can see him and make sure everything just feels right and that it fits.

The past two years have been a lot of fun and a huge learning experience. There has always been new adjustments and hard times too.  I have really enjoyed having a daughter and being just the three of us for a while.  And now with open hearts the three of us are ready to welcome and love another member of our family.

I am really excited to take on the challenge of having a son, I hope I can be a great mother and teach him how to be a good man, so he can be a great husband and father one day.

Kailah 27months

Kailah at 2yrs and 3months, just right before our new little addition gets here.

Angelina Ballerina is the new go to show for this little ballerina. She loves to dance along with the show and her daily attire consists of a pink tutu and her "fly wings". In fact tonight it was a fight that left Kailah in tears that she had to take off her tutu and wings to go to bed (mostly cause she just didn't want to go to bed though.) Kailah is definitely a little girlie girl.  She still loves going to her friends and playing trucks and trains and all that fun stuff that we don't have at home, but when we are home it's all about the girlie stuff. 

She already loves her baby brother and hugs my belly daily.  We talk about baby brother and about his car seat and his swing and the crib he will get to sleep in when he gets here. I can tell she is really excited and that she really knows what we are talking about.
Kailah loves getting lots of attention from her parents and is not one that likes to play by herself for too long. She still can be shy and timid when first meeting new people but once you get to know her, her ball of energy just unfurls and she can talk your ear off.  Every one who comes over is our "friends" and she loves answering the door when someone rings our doorbell.

There are so many days when I wish I could just let the TV run all day long and just put her in front of it. (something I have always been so against! haha!) but Kailah only lasts a half hour at the most, at a time and then she wants to do something else, usually consisting of me doing it with her.

Kailah is my little buddie and we do everything together! I have started to mourn the end of the days that it is just the two of us during the day.  As much as we will love baby brother, It is never going to be just the two of us again.  I have really enjoyed the past two years that it has been just us and I am glad that I was able to stay at home with Kailah and spend every moment with her. I don't feel like I missed out on her babiness and that is something I will never regret.  Being a mom is the best and so rewarding when you look back at it all, even through the hard times.

Now that my delivery date is getting closer I have been having this overwhelming love for Kailah, just wanting to hold her and cuddle her all the time.  she has even become more attached to Jason and I, to the point where she is clingy and cries when we try to drop her off at nursery now(something she never used to do.)

We have been spending a lot of time outdoors at the pool and the beach this year.  Kailah absolutely loves being outside and playing the sand or the water.  She just recently has learned how to blow bubbles in the pool and she loves using different types of floaties in the pool.  If the timing with this baby weren't off, I would have loved to do swimming lessons with Kailah again this summer, but for sure by next spring I think she will really be ready to learn.  It can be so scary taking her to a pool now because she is getting more and more independent and she wants to be like the big girls, so we really have to keep our eyes on her to make sure she doesn't go under.

4th of July 2011

I love the Fourth of July! The warm summer nights, the bbq'ing, the parade's, the fireworks, the patriotism! One of the best holidays in my opinion!
Unfortunately this year we were not able to do as much as I had hoped, due to my fall and not being able to walk or stand for long periods of time.  All in all it ended up being a really great relaxing 4th.  We woke up early and went to a pancake breakfast at our stake center. Then there was a fair  and car show at the strip mall by our apartments so we went to that for a little bit and let Kailah get in the bouncy play area for a bit and listened to music and got some freebies and by 10:30am It was so hot and I was just exhausted so we went home and planned to go swimming at our pool when The Busch family from the ward called and invited us to go over to their house to swim, so despite being really tired (well ME being really exhausted) we decided to drive up the road and hang out and be social.  They have a few kids around Kailah's age so kailah had a blast with them and just being able to swim with her daddy in the pool made the afternoon so much fun.  Kailah loved having this whole day with us.  After swimming we tried putting her down for a nap thinking she would conk out from being so exhausted but instead she was screaming in delight and kept turning from side to side not being able to fall asleep... She just knew that today was a special day and different from the other days and she was having so much fun.

That night we went to see fireworks in Thousand Oaks, we saw another family we knew from our ward and were able to socialize a bit with them before the fireworks went off.  Kailah was a little scared at first covering her eyes for the fireworks, but as soon as we started talking positively about them she got excited and started telling us about them too, saying the colors, and how loud they were etc..

It was nice to stay close to home for this holiday and have the weekend just to ourselves to do whatever we wanted.  Hopefully next year I can plan a little better and actually do a BBQ for one of the nights, but Jason and I both agreed we enjoyed the relaxation and non stress of the weekend.